Friday, December 02, 2011

Hey Nonny

I haven't given up blogging, but obviously I haven't been writing as much in the last year (with the exception of August, LOL). My life feels exhausting, so at the end of most days I'm too worn out to rehash it all! And then, of course, I get stuck after big events: We went to Utah the last weekend in October -- which included Cuatro's first birthday and the awesomeness that is Halloween in a neighborhood full of young families -- so I'm reluctant to blog about anything else before I've told those tales and posted those pictures. And since I haven't yet, nothing else gets written. D'oh.

But sigh not so! I had a pleasant kick in the pants this week from one of the girls at the blog Hey Nonny. She asked if I would submit a guest post for this week's Friday Feature, and I felt too flattered to refuse her. Please head over there to check it out; I hope you'll enjoy what I wrote. :-)


~RCH~

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Happy Birthday to Tres

Tres hosts a tea party for one

This week we celebrated a milestone: Tres's fourth birthday, and the first magic (aka golden) birthday in our family, defined as the year one's age coincides with the date she was born. Uno will have hers at 13; Dos will have hers at 26; Cuatro has to wait until she turns 29. (DH and I had ours at ages 3 and 7, respectively, but I guess we didn't know how cool it was at the time. I actually spent most of my 7th birthday stuck in the middle of the desert somewhere between Portland and Boise next to our broken down 15-passenger van. As I recall, it was neither magical nor golden. But I digress.)

Because it was her once-in-a-lifetime magic birthday, I wanted to give her something special -- but I didn't know what. Something lovely and meaningful and important, but something a newly minted 4yo would be excited about. Also something not too pricey, LOL. (In a family of this size, we have to consider precedent!) I actually finagled an afternoon by myself and wandered Toys R Us for a couple hours (this after trolling the web every nap time for days in a row), but nothing felt like the right thing. The giant, elaborately decorated solid wood doll house would have been nice, but the $300 price tag was out of my league. Dress-ups might have been cool -- and you'd think I could have found some good ones, given that her birthday falls in the month of Halloween -- but everything they had looked flimsy and cheap (while simultaneously not being as cheap as you'd hope). In the end, I came home slightly unsatisfied with a plastic Dora the Explorer castle plus a few extra figurines to go with it. Not grandiose, not important, not something so special she'll remember it for years to come....

Of course, one of the things I've always loved about Tres, ever since she could talk, is her vocal and exaggerated gratitude. Every present she opened -- the Dora castle, the off-brand princess Barbies from her sisters, clothes from DH's uncles, an art kit from SIL -- she declared the best ever, her most favoritest thing in the whole wide world, a real life dream come true! "Oh, how did you know?" she'd ask while clasping the gift to her chest. "I love it with all my heart! This is the best birthday I ever had!" And because of some family drama that the girls (except for maybe eavesdroppy Uno) know nothing about, we got to have several birthday celebrations over the course of three days (certain people refuse to be in the same place with other certain people, and some otherwise uninvolved people feel compelled to pick sides and meanwhile I'm just trying to be Switzerland and let innocent little Tres share her day with all the people and it's just a big fat mess). The upshot of which is that just about everybody came away thinking that their gift was her favorite because they didn't hear her say it about every other gift. But really it's true; she loves each of them the most, like a mom loves her kids: Not the most in a ranking from one to whatever, but the most in terms of capacity. It would be impossible for her to love them each even a smidgen more than she does because her heart is full to the point of exploding.

Kaboom. :-)

We topped off the days of celebration with a series of photo shoots, which does fit the meaningful bill a little more than a plastic castle. Usually my girls hate when I try to take their pictures, but Tres allowed me to do it (and even asked if she could do it again after our first session!) because it meant she could wear lipstick (aka chapstick or clear gloss). The photo up top and these below are a few of my favorites (the pics of her in the pink fairy dress and the white dress were taken a few days before her birthday; the ones of her in blue were taken the day after).


Tres's tea party

More Tres at 4yo

Tres waits for her train

Tres on her 4th birthday

And one of all my girls, just for fun:

The other girls butt in on Tres's photo shoot


~RCH~

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Grrrrrr

We're heading to my hometown next month for a quick visit, and on the agenda is a family portrait. I feel very self-conscious of my post-4-babies body and don't really want to be immortalized with my belly still looking pregnant, a year after the last delivery (which it currently does). I tried googling fashion tips this afternoon, and came across an article that promised Five Outfits to Disguise A Food Baby!

Except that it came illustrated with images like this:

super skinny model pretends she has a fat stomach magically made thin by sweatpants

Seriously? Seriously. I don't think that woman even has a stomach, let alone an ounce of fat. Grrrrrr.

And waaaaah.

Anybody have any real advice? I don't know what to call my body type; I don't think I'm pear shaped because it's not my entire bottom half that's big (I don't think), just my stomach. That would make me an apple, I guess, but then most apples are presumed to have a big chest and I, sadly, do not. It really is just this enormous 6mo-pregnant-looking belly I want to hide.

Ugh, it's all so depressing. And depressing that I care. But I do. :-P


~RCH~

Revisiting Randomland

1. I took the girls today to our hospital's Teddy Bear Care Fair -- it's designed to familiarize children with the hospital and what goes on there so they'll be less afraid if they ever need treatment. They each brought a stuffed animal (a dog, elephant and bunny, respectively) and went through the various stations: Intake / triage; to the lab to have their animals' "blood" drawn; respiratory and physical therapy; surgery -- where Uno's dog had the hole in his tail stitched up! -- and x-ray, where all the animals had their pictures made. Here, for instance, is [a very bad scan of] Dos's elephant, Elli:

elli

Everything looks great except for the lack of bones and the calcified heart. Otherwise, though, a-okay!

They all enjoyed themselves. I think Uno felt a little too old for the pretense (checking the animals with a stethoscope, etc), but she was tired of waiting for me to fix her dog (which she asked me to do months ago; I'm not sure where my sewing kit is) and the nurse just stitched it up lickity split. Dos seemed to think it was all just fun. Tres took it very seriously, which was super cute.


2. I've given up soda. Sort of. I've stopped buying it for the house, anyway -- I'll still order it at a restaurant, or if, say, I came over to your house and you offered me a [case of] Diet Dr. Pepper I would graciously accept, because that's only basic good manners, right? Yes. But I don't have any more cans here, and haven't for most of the week. It's been a rough week. The funny thing is, I seem not to miss the caffeine so much as I miss the coldness or the crack and fizz of opening a new can first thing in the morning or the having something in my hand to sip on all day long. Drinking soda apparently kept my bored eating in check; now I may have to take up gum chewing. Hmmm.

I would really, really love a Dr. Pepper right now. Waaaah.


3. Did I mention that the older girls are playing soccer this fall? Dos is on a grey team; Uno is on an orange team. I never wanted to be a soccer mom, but I think the experience is good for them. I will post action shots if I can ever get any. So far I've been too distracted on the sidelines keeping Tres out of trouble / Cuatro safe in her stroller (usually the same thing -- poor Cuatro) to take any decent pictures.


4. All of us are sick with a cold. It's very annoying.


5. I am in love with the song "Mr. Blue" by Catherine Feeney. Too often I feel like I could be its subject. I try to be vigilant, to make sure I'm not inching toward melancholy that might affect (infect?) my girls -- but then I wonder if the vigilance is just as bad because it keeps me self-absorbed and focused on the thing I want to avoid. It's a conundrum.

*Sigh.* I'll figure it out. And in the meantime, you should love Catherine Feeney too.



~RCH~

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Dispatches from the past

Ten years ago, I was a newlywed living in Kansas City and working a desk job for TWA (the even then soon-to-be-defunct Trans World Airlines); one of my best friends was also a newlywed, but living in the hometown of her Scottish husband, near Glasgow. I realized yesterday that since I'm a pack rat even digitally, I probably still had our correspondence from 9/11. I don't think this is all -- I probably wrote her other emails from my work account -- but this is some of what I still have, with names and personal bits redacted, of course.


TO: BeckleTheFreckle
FROM: RCH
SUBJECT: Terrorist Attacks
DATE: September 11, 2001, 12:38 PM

Beckle,

I suppose you've heard by now about the terrorist attacks in the U.S.? I got most of my news this morning from the BBC web site because all the American news sources (Yahoo! News, MSNBC, CNN, etc.) were overloaded with web traffic and I couldn't get through.

I actually watched the second World Trade Center tower get smacked by the plane.... I turned on the Today Show as I got ready for work this morning; the first plane hit while I was in the shower. Matt Lauer and Katie Couric were talking about that breaking news story as I got dressed -- acting on the assumption that it was an accident, which is rare but has happened before to tall buildings. (The Empire State Building got hit in the '30s, apparently, and the Pan Am Building accidentally got clipped by a helicopter in the '60s.) And as they were talking about that and showing live film of the hole in the building, and the smoke billowing out, a larger plane came into the camera's view and deliberately plowed straight into the other tower and exploded.

I had to go to work then, but I listened to the news on the radio all the way there and all morning at my desk. The two towers have since collapsed, as I'm sure you've heard; the Pentagon got hit by another plane; a plane crashed near (but not at) Camp David in Pennsylvania. All flights throughout the entire country are canceled for the forseeable future -- at least for the rest of the day and likely for some of tomorrow. International flights are being diverted to Canada. Flights in the air were told to land at the nearest available airport. The airport here is going crazy with stranded passengers, apparently. I don't work at the airport proper; my office is at the airplane overhaul maintenance base about half a mile south. We're still open, but security is tightened; I guess they're not letting anybody in.

I'm not supposed to play on the internet except at lunch time, but I've been checking the news sites all morning anyway. I hope they don't mind. I think they'll understand, under the circumstances. Two of the four planes that were hijacked were from American Airlines, the company that now owns TWA (the other two were from United). A couple hundred people are dead just from those plan crashes; no word yet on how many were killed at the World Trade Center, though 50,000 people work there so the numbers could be pretty high.

Damn. All of this is pretty hard to fathom.

[Personal stuff follows]


~RCH~




TO: RCH
FROM: BeckleTheFreckle
SUBJECT: RE: Terrorist Attacks
DATE: September 11, 2001, 1:50 PM

RCH,

I just happened to be sitting around and decided to turn on the tv at about 2 o' clock and I was watching Scooby Doo and for some reason I decided to flip channels and they showed the world trade center on fire...it was horrifying. I saw the second plane crash into it and watched the whole hour while people ran away from the debris and eventual collapse of both buildings live. It is scary to say the least.

I don't even like thinking about the possible outcome...all these insane thoughts racing around my head (and being depressed already doesn't help a damn bit) about never seeing you and K2 or my family again. I was online a bit earlier talking to RW when I got your letter and she started freaking out saying things about her brother and her boyfriend getting drafted....

[Personal stuff follows]


~BeckleTheFreckle~




TO: RCH & Others
FROM: BeckleTheFreckle
SUBJECT: Hope
DATE: September 13, 2001, 6:45 AM

RCH & Others,

I just finished watching a special changing of the guard this morning on the BBC and it was good to hear the National Anthem again. :)

I can't tell you how the events of the last few days have affected me so far away from home and most of the people I love in America. I'm sure you're tired of the saturation of reports, so feel free to trash this if you want. Still, it's good to see hope shining through all this darkness. There is some good to be made out of every tragedy.

To those back home, I love you so much and I miss you. It never seems to hit as hard as times like these then you realize life is so short and fragile, but there is nothing to be afraid of as long as we trust in each other and do the best we can. Take care of yourselves and know that I'm thinking of you all the time.

To my family and friends here in Scotland, thank you for taking such good care of me. It means a lot.

I'll leave you with this scripture that my Mom has hanging in our house: "Fear not what man can do, for I shall be with you forever and ever."


Love Always,
~BeckleTheFreckle~




TO: BeckleTheFreckle
FROM: RCH
SUBJECT: Random Dispatch from the KC Correspondent
DATE: September 17, 2001, 4:47 PM

Beckle,

Happy Monday the week after! ...Life is beginning to return to normal here (for those of us, at least, who live hundreds of miles from the terrorist attacks and who didn't know anyone who died in them). The news has finally toned down its coverage of the disaster; it's still the only news they report, but they've given up the round-the-clock business and have returned us to our regularly scheduled programs. Which is such a freaking relief! There are only so many facts they can report, and beyond that it's all horrible "human interest" stories of people who lost loved ones. Wives whose husbands called from the hijacked planes to say goodbye, or firemen who lost their whole company in the rescue effort.

I saw one interview with the CEO of some accounting firm (I think) whose offices were near the top of the WTC -- he had been at his daughter's school that morning, so he was the only one of 700 employees accounted for. He broke down in the interview, sobbing: "Seven hundred people! I was their leader, and now I'm the only one left." He could barely speak. "I'm responsible to the families of seven hundred people. They're all dead. All of them." That was the most disturbing news interview I saw, because I'm not used to seeing men cry at all, and he was just a wreck. I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed for him and all of those families. I tried to clean up my face when DH came home from that day's rotations -- he already didn't know what to do with me when I had dainty little tear-stained cheeks from other news stories, so I knew he'd be at a loss with my big puffy eyes and red, runny nose -- but I couldn't do it. I was too far gone. And the interview was over by the time he walked in the door, anyway, so he couldn't see what had upset me so much and I was in no state to explain it articulately. Poor husband-o-mine. We decided then that I should not watch the news by myself anymore, and even with DH around we'll only watch it if they're discussing details of the investigation.

Ugh. What a week it's been.

K2 and I got our hair done on Saturday! That was fun. Though I felt guilty all week leading up to it, because I didn't know how I wanted it cut (a safe, traditional chin-length bob? Which DH thinks is too short. Or maybe branch out into a new style? Scary!) but I felt so completely shallow for worrying about hair when there were so many people with real problems. But then I'd feel guilty for grieving for all those people in NY and DC because I didn't know any of them.... I felt like I was trying to usurp their grief because I was (again) too shallow to have any of my own. Does that make sense? Because really, what business do I have crying? The attacks didn't affect me directly. My life is a freaking bed of roses. I was having a very difficult time reconciling the sadness and horror I felt with all the banal little details of going on with life.

Anyway. I promise I'm going to stop interjecting all my stories with stuff about the attacks. On with the show!

[Personal stuff follows]


~RCH~




TO: RCH
FROM: BeckleTheFreckle
SUBJECT: Ramblings
DATE: September 18, 2001, 9:17 AM

RCH,

I must commiserate with you on behalf of the terrorist stuff. DH had to impose a news ban on me too because I got scared on him Wednesday night, I started crying and saying that I was never going to see my family and friends again and we'd never be able to go back to Utah...I couldn't get over seeing the people listening to answering machine messages from their family, and I saw that guy too who was saying he was responsible for everyone and started crying. It broke my heart. It made me want to be around Americans so badly, it made me want to have a flag to fly. It made me want to be able to join in with everyone in feeling sorry and I can't do that. It's been so hard for me over here without anyone to bitch to. People feel bad, but they don't quite understand how scary and close to home it all is. I was checking my e-mail the next day and RW was online and she was freaking out about everyone getting drafted...oh dear. It was a bad week.

The only thing that gave me any comfort was watching any BBC program that had memorial services and played the national anthem. It probably seemed pretty pathetic to passers by me standing with my hand over my heart singing it at the top of my lungs, but it made me feel better.

But it's like a train wreck, you know? You don't want to look, but you just can't tear yourself away. I'm glad the news is calming down a bit. The media is mostly a blessing, but not when it's mass-hysteria inducing.

[Personal stuff follows]


~BeckleTheFreckle~




Ten years later. The death toll was thankfully lower than it could have been, and our armed forces are still staffed by amazing volunteers. Beckle & her DH eventually moved back to the U.S.; my job at TWA became redundant in February 2002 when the merger with American Airlines went through, and I was laid off (though I quickly found work as an assistant at a patent law firm). The horror gradually receded, and life went on.

I watched a lot of the coverage last week leading up to the anniversary -- lots of Where Are They Now? stories about people in iconic photos that I had never seen because I couldn't bear it at the time -- and I watched the service in NYC on Sunday. It all still makes me cry, and still makes me feel ... guilty, I guess, because I haven't "earned" my grief the way the mourners at Ground Zero have. I didn't lose anyone or anything but a belief in the invincibility of my country. Still. It breaks my heart. I have a bad habit of trying to imagine myself in the lives of others. I like to vicariously try on others' experiences, see how they fit, wonder how I would react to what someone else has been through. While empathy may be a good quality in some situations, it's useless here. Completely useless. I'd like to think my "mourning with those who mourn" (to borrow a scriptural phrase) actually means something, but nothing changes the terribleness of that day.



~RCH~

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Spooky!

The spider who lives outside my kitchen window
This guy and me, we have an understanding: He can build an elaborate web outside my kitchen window and eat the bugs who congregate by the porch light and I will not try to kill him AS LONG AS he never, ever, ever tries to come inside or send any of his relatives inside. If he does, I will kill him dead.

Of course, I'd have to get over the panic attack, first. And maybe call DH to do the killing for me so I wouldn't have to get too close. (Have I ever blogged any other spider adventures? In Texas once I found a spider as big as my hand crawling on my bedroom wall. DH was out of state -- on a recruiting trip for his residency program, I think, or maybe a job interview -- but I called him anyway. Obviously I knew he couldn't kill it for me over the phone, but I needed moral support! 30 minutes of hyperventilating, tears, and false starts later, I finally squealed and smashed it with a shoe. Another time, in Idaho, Uno and I found a particularly dangerous looking spider on the couch in the basement; it wasn't sooooo big -- though it wasn't small, either! -- but it was black and kind of furry. *SHUDDER!* DH worked close enough to home that he often came home at lunch, so Uno and I sat there watching the spider -- didn't want him to get away! -- from a safe distance for 90 minutes until DH could come and kill it for us.)

Okay, yuck. I was feeling all smooth and brave about this guy, since we have this treaty and everything, but now I'm feeling creepy-crawly. My hair is constantly falling out and every time a loose hair brushes against my neck or arm, I think it's something else. Eeeeew. I shouldn't have started this. Ick. Eeeek.

So sorry. :-(

In other spooky news, I took the girls to the Halloween store this afternoon to get them out of the house so DH could nap a little before his night shift. I thought it would be a fun outing; we'd get ideas for costumes (I told them I wasn't buying today, so no begging!) and look at decorations and props. The first thing we saw as we entered the store was a lawn display, some kind of gory fountain with a guy holding his own chopped off head, blood oozing out of its mouth instead of water. It was gross. I hate that element of Halloween, honestly; it's too over-the-top for me. I don't mind all scary stuff -- witches, zombies, skeletons and skulls -- but I like them to be a little bit classier than that. It's like difference between Hitchcock and cheesy B slasher movies.

Anyway, 3yo Tres was nervous as soon as we entered the store. I tried to steer us to a more innocuous aisle -- steam punk accessories and Indiana Jones costumes -- but then the girls heard barking. I assured them it was probably from some motion-activated Halloween decoration, not real dogs. Because who lets real dogs in costume shops? Apparently this place does, because just after I had the girls all calmed down, we saw two dogs (leashed and with their owner) charging down the adjacent aisle. Pretty much all my girls are nervous about dogs, but Uno is terrified of them. She screamed and clung to me and wouldn't let go. She kept wailing, "Make them go away! Mommy, make the dogs go away!" I had to peel her off of me to remind her that she was safe, and that as long as they were leashed it was Uno's job to stay away from them -- that her phobia wasn't the dog owners' responsibility.

Uno calmed down after the dogs left the store, but Tres remained on high alert. The decorations made her nervous. The masks freaked her out. We tried to stick to the non-gory parts of the store, but that didn't help either. At one point Dos picked up a broom from the Harry Potter section and Tres screamed, "Don't touch that! I'm worried you'll fly away!" We tried to explain that it was all fake, but I guess she's not old enough yet to fully understand the difference between real and pretend. (Though I had thought she was savvy: When she was potty training, I told her not to get her Dora panties wet because then Dora would be sad. "Mom," she told me, rolling her eyes a bit, "Dora won't be sad because that's just a picture on clothes -- it's not a real person!" Huh. That line had worked on her sisters when they were her age! Whatever!) We wandered around some more, looked at the friendly toddler costumes (a ballerina! Strawberry Shortcake! a princess!), but of course around every corner lurked some dark and scary thing so we called it quits before too long.

"Promise me," Tres said, "promise me you'll never take me to the Halloween store again. I don't like it." Poor kid.

On the drive home, I listened to an interview on NPR with the Baltic brass band-influenced alternative musician Beirut. He sounds like an interesting (not spooky!) guy, and I liked the snippets of music they played to punctuate the interview. His first album was Gulag Orkestar; his latest is Rip Tide. I think I'll check him out. Maybe you should, too. :-)


~RCH~



Wednesday, September 07, 2011

Things I've made recently

I am not a brilliant artiste, but I like to break up the drudgery of my days (and/or make my responsibilities seem more exciting) by crafting things. And of course when I say crafting, I mean using Photoshop, mostly.

Here are some things I've been working on:

Planner cover

I think I mentioned I was making myself a planner. I designed it for September 2011 - September 2012, with space for everybody's activities plus DH's work schedule and my Primary responsibilities on a week per two-page spread, and had it printed at Blurb.com. I like it. The only thing I would do differently is to design more space for Wednesday & Thursday, which fall on either side of the spine; the book doesn't lie perfectly flat, so a bit of each of those days gets lost in the bleed. Oh well. Anyway, this is the cover I made.


Yeti-Girl

Uno saw my planer and wanted me to make her a 12 month calendar. "You can make it with monsters for every month!" she said. "For January, make Yetis throwing snowballs at each other. For February, draw vampires in love. For March...." I protested that I can't actually draw, and that it's even trickier to draw on a computer with a mouse (I don't have a tablet) but she begged me to just try. Like this: "Pleeeeeease, Mom, just tryyyyyyy!" All stretched out and desperate. So I'm giving it a go. Thank goodness for Photoshop shapes and brushes! This is one of two abominable snow people; the other is a boy, and is exactly the same, flipped horizontally, sans eye lashes and painted nails. Now I just have to put them against some kind of snowy background and give them stuff to throw at each other. (Please note that any person or anthropomorphic being I draw will always be facing forward. I can't draw profiles or any action other than arms raised, LOL.)


time

Tres had a preschool lesson last week about time, both in macro (days make weeks make months make years) and micro (hours of each day, parts of a clock) increments. For the daily stuff, I made this clock. I cut out each of the pieces, "laminated" them all with clear packaging tape, and then let Tres practice putting the icons on each part of the day where they belong -- sun up at 7; breakfast at 8; get the girls from school at 3(ish); etc. We didn't really mess with the hands of the clock because it was all a bigger lesson than I thought it would be, but I've saved the parts for another day.


Tree of Life

I'm in charge of Sharing Time in Primary this month, and also designing the bulletin board with our monthly theme (which, for September, is The Gospel Will Be Preached In All The World). I made this 22"x17" poster, printed on four letter-sized card stock pages which I then taped together, representing the Tree of Life as described in Lehi's dream (1 Nephi 8; 1 Nephi 11). I printed out extra fruit, wrote gospel principles on the back of them and "laminated" them again with packing tape, then stuck them on top of the poster which I pinned to the bulletin board. For the activity, we talked about missionary work: What would you tell people about the gospel? Each kid got to come up and pick a fruit off the tree, and then we talked about that principle (prayer; faith; Christ as Savior; etc).

(Oh, and as a last minute addition to the bulletin board I cut out blank paper doll people in various colors and had them hold on to a silver sparkly pipe cleaner representing the Iron Rod mentioned in the scriptures above. I thought it turned out nicely, but I don't have a picture of the finished product so you'll have to imagine those parts.)


I guess that's all for now. I need to start thinking about how to draw spooky/cute vampires before Tres and Cuatro get up from their naps....


~RCH~

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Antiestablishmentarianism

1. Clearly, I'm not so good with goals: I began the month with the intention of writing a post every day in August, but with the understanding (explicitly stated) that I would miss some. And I have. But I don't really care. I've posted way more than I have all year long up to this point, so the net result is positive.

2. I first came to resent the whole idea of goal setting as a teenager in my church's Young Women "Personal Progress" program. I think it was designed to mimic the boys' scouting program (but without being actual Girl Scouts, because everybody knows Girl Scouts are a godless liberal training ground) (or something). We were supposed to set a specific number of goals in various categories (Knowledge, Good Works, Faith, etc) over the course of several years and if we accomplished them all by the time we left the program at 18, we got ... a necklace with a generic lady on it. Oooooh! My first year in YW, we were able to come up with our own goals as long as they fit the categories. Then the program changed, and we were only able to choose from a predetermined list. That irritated me.

First of all, I don't like being told what to do. (Even by myself, apparently.) It brings out my stubborn streak. But I certainly didn't like someone else trying to micromanage my personal accomplishments. Yes, I concur that Knowledge, Good Works, Faith, and all the other etcs are important virtues and ought to be encouraged and cultivated. But how I cultivate those in myself isn't really anybody else's business, and dangling a little piece of jewelry as incentive kind of cheapens the whole mess that much more. (Surprise! I never earned my necklace.)

I'm sure there are many, many girls who loved the program and benefited from it. But it had the opposite-than-intended effect on me, and left a lasting bad taste in my mouth.

3. There's a similar program for the Primary children ages 8-11, to prepare them to tackle Big League goal setting when they hit their teenage years. (And also, of course, to help them take responsibility for learning the gospel in more self-directed ways; I need to focus on that.) As their leader, I ought to be all gung-ho in helping them meet the requirements.... But I really struggle with my enthusiasm in this area. :-/

4. It's not all about church programs, though. I never liked the grade grab, either. I'm the sort of nerd who really enjoyed school (mostly, with a big exception for math classes). I loved the sense of accomplishment I got from doing challenging things well. I loved to feel those neurons flying, making connections between disparate points, my understanding of the world growing ever larger. That was enough for me -- if it came with an A, cool; if not, whatever. Education was the point, not arbitrary letters on a piece of paper. If I wanted an A, I used to tell people, I could draw a lovely one myself and stick it up on the fridge.

The "problem" (in other people's minds, not my own) came on the few occasions when I didn't think my educational time was being used well. For some reason we spent the first bit of my senior year AP English class working on remedial sentence construction:

"I have a dog." "My dog's name is Rusty." "My dog is black." === "I have a black dog named Rusty."

Really? That's college level course work? I should waste my time filling out worksheets like that? Clearly, no. So I didn't. And I failed that unit.

And I didn't care.

(I don't mean to disparage my AP English experience as a whole -- we quickly moved on to much more appropriate material. I LOVED that class. It's depressing, though, that the teacher thought any of us needed that unit in the first place, and even more depressing if she was right.)

Anyway, my rambly point: Education is absolutely a worthwhile goal. Micromanaging it with stupid busy work and offering cheap / arbitrary rewards, however, will never motivate me. (I think DH puts more stock in grades as a concept, so if any of our daughters turns out like me we'll have to figure out a way to respond as a united front.)

5. Maybe the real root of the issue is that I'm cranky and / or crazy stubborn. Or lazy; I'm willing to admit to some natural laziness that might disincline me to setting goals. I've just never been a striver -- I don't have the energy and I don't see the point! I don't think everybody needs to be a Type A Overachiever. I'm content to go with the flow, to improve myself as I can in my quirky and individualized way, without the pressure of answering to anybody.

As they say in the hood, I'ma Be Me. :-)


~RCH~

Friday, August 26, 2011

Zzzzz Zzzz

1. Sleep is delicious. I don't understand why my children don't want more of it!

2. Although we all slept in a bit this morning, so I shouldn't complain. For some reason my phone (which doubles as my alarm clock) ran out of batteries overnight (though I always make sure it's charged before I go to sleep, so I don't know what's up with that) and it didn't wake me up. I woke up instead to Uno right in my face exclaiming, "Mom, it's almost time for school!" We actually had 15 or 20 minutes to get everyone dressed, fed, and out the door -- which is pushing it for us -- but the adrenaline of waking up to that realization had everybody scurrying. No tardies. *Phew!*

3. Summer completely screwed up Cuatro's nap routine. I had hoped that when the big girls went back to school and the house quieted down, she'd return to her Cozy Nap After Breakfast, Cozy Nap After Lunch schedule.... But nope. She thinks she needs to be awake ALL THE TIME now (because she mostly was all summer, what with their noise and their wanting her to be their "puppy" all the dang time). *Sigh.* She still needs the rest, but she will cry herself into a tizzy -- she has never once cried herself to sleep; I don't think she's built that way -- any time I put her somewhere she might comfortably nap. If she thinks I'm trying to get her to sleep, she freaks out ... which is why she has napped for the past several days in the high chair; she doesn't see it coming. (Am I a terrible mom? It looks so uncomfortable, but I can't move her without waking her up.)

4. DH's uncle told the girls about a yoga program he likes to watch (watch being the operative word, I think; he has joint and other problems that I believe keep him from participating). "You all are young and stretchy," he told them. "You should do it!" And so, a couple days ago, they did: Uno dragged Dos out of bed at FIVE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING to do yoga with some lady on PBS. 5:00 AM, seriously? When I discovered it, I turned off the tv and marched them right back to bed for another hour; they need their sleep far more than they need to do the downward dog (or whatever). They get grouchy without enough sleep! Thank goodness for a DVR; I'll record it for them and they can get their exercise after school.

5. I had a dream a few nights ago that I, as my teenage self, had to pick up two of my sisters from school -- one from elementary school, the other from junior high. Except that I forgot until way later in the evening. When I realized my mistake, I zoomed over to the elementary school first. All the doors were locked, but I found my sister around the back of the building, playing in a sand box. She didn't seem to care that it took me so long.

Then the two of us zipped up to the junior high, only to find more locked doors and a sign that said, "Student Waiting Area Closes at 10pm! No Exceptions!" It was 10:04. Too late. Couldn't find the sister anywhere. So the years pass, the family grows -- minus one sister (because apparently we never went looking or called the police or anything; sorry!) -- and finally I have daughters of my own that I have to take to junior high. (Don't remember if they were my actual daughters or fictional dream ones.) Lo and behold, who do we find there? The missing sister! Apparently she had waited for as long as she could, then went home with someone else, dropped out of school, stowed away on a freight steamer to Africa where she taught organic farming techniques to rural villages....

"Yeah," she said, "I kind of hate you for abandoning me, but I've had an interesting life -- and now I'm helping other young kids whose families forget about them -- so it's all good. No hard feelings." Then we hugged it out.

Anyone care to interpret that one? LOL.


~RCH~

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

So... Is this an every other day thing now?

1. I need to go on a spending fast: Necessary purchases only, and no talking myself into revised definitions of "necessary." *Sigh.*

2. DH has been working a lot of night shifts lately, which has its good points and bad points:

The Good
He comes home and sleeps the morning away, then wakes up as the girls come home from school -- which means they actually get to see him for several hours! When he works days, they see him for a minute or two as they eat breakfast, and then maybe after I've tucked them into bed if they're still awake when he gets home (assuming he gets home right away; if he gets a bad case right at the end of his shift, he may have to stay at work another couple hours to finish it up). When he works nights, he can help the girls with their homework, play games with them, eat dinner with us all.... It's lovely and rare.

The Bad
I get no sympathy for my own exhaustion because he doesn't work nights frequently enough for his body to ever fully adjust, and therefore he always wins the I'm So Tired contest. Not that we're competing. But seriously, sometimes -- often -- I really do feel very exhausted; can't I just have that? No, I wasn't up all night saving stroke victims or stitching up the aftermath of drunken brawls, but ... *YAWN!* ... my energy doesn't ratchet up in direct inverse proportion to the kind of night he's had. It's its own thing. Right?

3. I know I'm not supposed to think this way, but lately I've felt down / guilty because I don't do anything. Yes, motherhood is noble and beautiful, and/or the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world, and/or whatever other clichés you want to throw at me. I get that I'm growing people -- four of them! -- and that's no small feat, but it's such a passive job. I make sure they're clothed and fed and occasionally bathed (LOL) and that they don't kill each other accidentally or on purpose, but it feels like most of my job happens on the sidelines. And nobody notices. And if they do, they're as likely to reject it outright as to appreciate it. (Tres, before having the slightest idea what we're having: "Eeew, Mom, I hate your dinner!" Every. Single. Night.)

I think if they could operate a stove or drive a car, the girls wouldn't need me at all. But here I'd still be, trying to interject every now and then with a "Hey, don't do that -- it's not nice to sit on babies!" while being ignored. What exactly is my net contribution? It doesn't feel like much.

4. Well, that was bleak. Chalk it up to the fatigue mentioned in item #2.

5. Let's see, a number 5.... Hmmm. So hey, East Coast Earthquake, huh? How about that. :-P


~RCH~

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Weekend Update

1. Last night was rough. Cuatro is teething; Tres wouldn't sleep; I nodded off on the couch downstairs accidentally, and when I woke up at 3am to go to bed I found Uno and Dos in my bed (DH was at work) WATCHING CARTOONS. At 3:00 in the morning, SHEESH. I kicked them out. I've felt exhausted and mad at the world all day.

2. I took all four girls plus Uno's best friend O to the movies yesterday, mostly to get them out of the house so post-night-shift DH could sleep. We saw Spy Kids, but not in 3D. Except that it sort of was in 3D because, though our theater didn't offer the visual effects, we did get the smell-o-vision card which is supposed to be the 4th D in more "classy" theaters. So 2Ds, plus two, minus one, comes out to 3D -- just not in the way you'd really want. If you wanted any extra Ds at all. Or something.

3. When we took Cuatro with us to see the Smurfs, she behaved herself nicely: She quietly noshed on a bottle, then fell asleep in my lap until the movie ended. Not so for Spy Kids. She made all sorts of noises, so I left the other girls in the row and took her to the back of the theater where I could bounce / sway / butt pat her to sleep. HA! She refused. She screamed a bit (sometimes in a happy way, sometimes less cheerfully), made motorboat noises, vigorously wriggled in an attempt to let me put her on the popcorny ground (I didn't), and occasionally gnawed on the collar of my shirt. One time she grabbed my shirt to chew on it, but spit up inside it instead. Right down the front of me. It was awesome. (If by awesome you mean not at all awesome.)

4. Cuatro is FINALLY getting some top teeth. And I mean it this time! I've thought for the last three months that they would pop through "any day now" -- because really, statistically, they would have to at some point. And she can be inexplicably grouchy sometimes (though she's usually very pleasant). But I saw them today: Two little white lines on her upper gums. They're almost here. Come on, little teeth!

She got her only other teeth two at a time, and now she's getting two top teeth at once -- is that normal? I don't remember the others' very well (I am traumatized by all things dental) but I don't think they came in pairs. Maybe one pretty soon after another, but I don't remember my other girls getting them together like this. Hmmm.

5. Dos lost her other front tooth last week, BTW. On Thursday, I think; she had the school nurse pull it out for her that afternoon while she waited to be picked up. I like it when they fall out / get pulled out at school because then I don't have to deal with any of the icky aftermath. I think she looks like a vampire now with both of those teeth gone, LOL; it's a shame she didn't lose them closer to Halloween! She said I could stage a photo shoot with her tomorrow, so maybe I'll post pictures of her later. :-)


~RCH~

Friday, August 19, 2011

It's August, so naturally I'm thinking of Halloween

1. I've been looking at Halloween costumes for the girls. Mostly just for Tres, because I have no hope of influencing Uno and Dos in their decisions (darn opinionated children!) and Cuatro isn't old enough to get excited about Halloween yet. Tres, at nearly 4yo, is the perfect mix of impressionable and enthusiastic.

2. She doesn't remember her first Halloween (she went as a sack of Idaho potatoes) or the next one (the famous mouse made by my BFF), but she still talks about the puppy costume she wore at 2yo ("I had paws! And a dog nose!"). Her memory of last year has less to do with the costume she wore (a kitty / ballerina combo) and more to do with the fact that I wasn't there (I was still stuck in the hospital with 3-day-old Cuatro). Boo.

3. I want this year to be fabulous. It helps that we'll be visiting my hometown over that holiday, where people get way more into it than they do here. I think we have a significant minority of people in this area who abstain from Halloween for religious reasons, and then also cranky old people who don't want to bother answering their doors. DH is a Halloween grinch (he says he didn't like it even as a kid -- what a weird boy), but it probably ties with Christmas as my favorite holiday of the year. I love the chance to be someone else for a day, and I love seeing what or whom everyone else chose to be. Hooray for chocolate, but I'd love Halloween even without the candy.

4. I wish we had amazing costumes.... Somehow our names ended up on the marketing list for a chichi store called Chasing Fireflies. They sell insanely expensive children's clothing; I've never bought anything from them (DH would have a stroke) (for that matter, I would have a stroke) but I love looking through their catalogs. A couple weeks ago we got their Halloween issue, with costumes such as

Queen of Hearts, $98
The Queen of Hearts, $98

or

Marie Antoinette, $88
Marie Antoinette, "only" $88.

As elaborate as the costumes are, I'm sure they cost a lot to make and their expense is probably justified. But it's not necessary. Not when Walmart costumes can be had for $10! :-P

5. Walmart costumes make me feel terribly depressed, though. They're flimsy and cheap and pitiful. My mom made all our costumes when we were little, and they were beautiful; if I can't sew things for my girls (and believe me, I can't), I'd at least like them to have that kind of quality. Just not for $100/kid. I've been scouring etsy and other places for more reasonably priced costumes (maybe $30 or less?) but so far I'm still unsatisfied.

But I guess I still have time to mull it over.


~RCH~

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Another Thursday Five

1. My new favorite recipe (which only Uno and I will eat, but whatever):

Awesome Black Beans & Rice

* 1 TBSP olive oil
* 3/4 cup onion, chopped fine
* 1/2 cup green pepper, chopped fine
* 1 cup (or 1 small can) diced tomatoes
* 1 can Bush's Seasoned Recipe Black Beans; drain & reserve juice
* 1/2 TSP thyme
* 1 TSP garlic salt
* 3 TBSP cider vinegar
* 1/2 TSP hot pepper sauce
* 1 cup cooked rice
* Meat of your choice (if you want any) (I've used ground beef or cubed pork tenderloin)

In a large skillet, heat olive oil. Cook onion and green pepper until tender. (If your meat isn't cooked, throw it in too; if I'm using leftovers I add it at the end.) Stir in tomatoes, beans, thyme, and garlic salt, and cook for 3 minutes. Add vinegar, pepper sauce, and reserved juice, and continue to cook for 5 minutes. Serve over rice.

(Sometimes I leave out the tomatoes because Uno isn't a fan -- I think when I do, I ought to use slightly less cider vinegar. They work well together, but the vinegar seems to take over without the tomatoes.)

2. I think it is too easy for me to disconnect from life. From people, more specifically. I don't blame technology; pundits and other talky types love to fault the internet for depersonalizing our society, making us all antisocial behind our little flickering screens.... But I was antisocial before the internet was born. I actually connect with real live people more frequently thanks to blogs (hey family, blog more!) (says the girl who averaged one post a month before this 5/day experiment) and Facebook and a private message board I belong to. Anyway, none of that is my point. Technology bla bla never mind.

It is too easy for me to disconnect. I am too comfortable in my own head. I love my family and BFFs, and when I'm physically near them I never want us to be apart; I want to always have them with me to talk and laugh and debate and commiserate with. And yet.... I go weeks (sometimes more) without talking to any of them. Part of it has to do with my phone aversion, sure, but also I am just too easily sucked into my own stream of consciousness as I bob and float through the days. I think I'm growing more introverted (if such a thing is possible) as I get older.

Or maybe I'm just completely self absorbed.

3. Our town has a weather vane store. Isn't that a crazy specific niche for a small town business? Maybe if we lived somewhere touristy that had lots of chic design / houseware boutiques and gift stores a weather vane shop would seem like a natural fit, but here it's just ... a crazy specific niche. Odd. Every time I pass it, I think, "You're so vane I bet you think that store is about you" (which is how item 2 segued into item 3, thank you very much).

4. Tres and I had preschool today! We learned about elephants at her request: We read Grandma Elephant's in Charge, learned how to make the letter E in both upper and lower case (lower case will need more practice), and then turned a few simple shapes (circles, a rectangle, and two crescents) into an elephant paper bag puppet.

Tres's elephant

We also practiced spelling her name, read another book (Pickle-Chiffon Pie), ate a snack (jello), sang the alphabet song a couple times, and of course we went out for recess. Cuatro, whom Tres elected on Tuesday to be Principal Baby, napped through the whole thing.

5. I need a passport. Not that I plan on going anywhere, sadly, but it would be nice to have in case I had to flee the country at a moment's notice. ;-) I used to have one (I've had two, actually) but it was in my maiden name. And then it expired. The girls (Uno especially) love to hear stories of my previous adventures, but it sure would be nice to add some new ones. *Sigh!*


~RCH~

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Quickly, because I am exhausted.

1. I never sleep well the night before the first day of school -- I didn't as a student, and I don't as a parent. I'm not nervous; I have no concerns, no negative feelings at all; I simply feel restless. And so I rest less. Ha. Yeah, I'm tired. I fell asleep last night around 3am and got up at 6:30. I hate mornings.

2. Morning drop off was a complete nightmare! I had to take all four kids with me because DH hadn't come home from his night shift yet. We dropped Uno off first at the intermediate school. I parked two blocks away and had to speed walk with a baby on my hip and a dawdly 3yo trailing behind. When we got to the school I tried walking Uno to her class room, but a random teacher stopped me; apparently the new 3rd graders had to go to an assembly in the cafeteria first. So I didn't get to see her room, but whatever. Dos, Tres, Cuatro and I speed walked back out and down two blocks, waited for a break in traffic so I could turn left, and made it to the primary school just in time -- though of course with nowhere to park. Grrr. It's a miracle Dos wasn't late. I imagine they weren't terribly strict about punctuality today, but still. UGH.

I'm hoping the rest of the year will be easier -- today was unusual in that I had to park and go in with them. Most days I'll slow the car just enough for them to jump out, LOL.

3. Tres and I had our first day of home preschool today. All we did was talk about how we wanted the year to go: We made a list of rules -- things like raise your hand before asking a question, be kind and (at Tres's insistence) have recess. We made a schedule, deciding that we would meet twice a week, on Tuesday and Thursday mornings, for an hour and a half. And then we brainstormed subjects Tres wants to learn about! The first thing? Pinecones. "Okay," I said, "let's write that down as Nature." She shook her head. "No, pinecones." So I guess I need to brush up on conifers! ;-)

I'm excited. I think we'll both have fun with this, and I think we will really benefit from more structured days.

4. Uno was waiting with her best friend when we picked her up after school. I asked O which teacher she had (they aren't in the same class this year, boo). "Mrs. XYZ," she said. "She's old." For some reason, that cracked me up.

5. How in the world are we half way through August already? That makes no sense.


ZZZzzzzzz....


~RCH~

Monday, August 15, 2011

Five Random Ramblings of a Procrastinator

1. I'm in the office looking for our 3-hole punch. The 3rd grade school supply list stated specifically that Uno must have four 2-pocket paper folders with three holes NOT prongs. Walmart had non-prong folders, but none with holes. I know we have a hole punch around here somewhere, but why don't I just sit down for a minute to blog and/or play Bejeweled Blitz...?

Ahhh, yes! :: Cracks open a Dr. Pepper ::

2. I think there ought to be a law to stop currently elected officials from campaigning for another position during their term. During the last presidential election, while John & Barack gallivanted around the country shaking hands and kissing babies, who was looking out for the interests of Arizona and Illinois, respectively? They were each hired to do a job -- and they each got paid for that job -- but spent all their time trying to get a different one. From my experience in the business world (it's been a while, but this seems like a no-brainer), that sort of behavior usually gets people fired pretty quickly and without the shiny references they'd need to keep climbing up the ladder. Everybody kvetches about incumbents and career politicians anyway -- a law like this would at least ensure they had to take turns, one term off and one term on.

Who's with me? :: Insert Howard Dean-style "Yeeeaaahhh!" here ::

3. Ensure vs. insure: Excluding industry usage (i.e., health insurance or auto insurance), the two words seem practically interchangeable; my online dictionary search says that they both mean to guarantee or protect (though the protecting seems more strongly associated with insure). I wonder why we have two distinct words that sound almost alike and have almost the exact same meaning? You'd think one or the other would have dropped out of usage by now. When one does, I'm guessing it will be ensure -- which is why I prefer to use it when I can. Save the redundant words! (I'm such a language nerd.)

4. The older girls start school tomorrow. Sort of. They only have to go until 11:30am. What's the point of that, I wonder? This is the first year I have students at different schools -- our elementary school goes from K-2; intermediate school is 3-5; middle school is 6-8; high school is 9-12. This year Dos will be in 2nd grade at one school and Uno will be in 3rd grade at another.... I'm feeling some anxiety about logistics, but I'm sure it will work out somehow.

In 2017 -- if I did my math right -- I'll have one kid in every place: Uno will be a high school freshman; Dos will be in her final year of middle school; Tres will be a 4th grader at the intermediate school and Cuatro will be in 1st grade. That will be a logistical challenge.

5. I think Facebook doesn't like me, and wants to let me know. A year or so ago I made a friend request to someone I knew in high school, and that person never responded. Which is fine -- I didn't expect to really reconnect anyway, just snoop around to see how his life had turned out and how time had changed him. I'm kind of nosy like that. So the friendship request is still pending, which means I am not privy to any of his deeply personal thoughts or what he had for lunch, but suddenly I'm getting status updates from him every time he accepts someone else as a friend. Is Facebook trying to rub this passive rejection in my face?

So weird.

Sigh. I ought to hunt up that 3-hole punch, I guess.


~RCH~

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Family Photos

1. I don't remember how this came to me, but somehow I ended up with a digital version of a slide my grandpa took in the '70s (maybe from him? maybe from my sister?). The baby isn't named, but the photo is dated October 1975 -- which doesn't make any sense, because my sister, at 14 months, didn't have that much hair and I (although precocious in many ways) would not have been crawling at only two months old. I'm pretty sure the picture is of me in 1976; I don't have many (any?) baby pictures to compare it to, but the crazy hair looks familiar:

Possibly me as a baby (?)

2. Everybody says Cuatro looks just like me. I tried to test the theory this afternoon by getting a similar shot of her, but she refused to pose correctly. Still, I got some cute shots. Such as:

Perspective

3. Or this one (please note the crazy hair):

Cuatro-with-Star-Wand

4. Or this one, in which she is reading Columbia, a Roman Catholic magazine we get because of DH's former membership in the Knights of Columbus (I don't think they know he converted). Is this my kid or what?

My-Baby-Can-Read

5. I was going to round out this post with side-by-side photos of DH as a kid and Dos; that child is 100% his, without a bit of me in her. (Uno and Tres tend more toward my side of the family, I think, but without looking like me in particular.) But the photos DH's aunt gave me when we first got married -- a jackpot of shots of him as an adorable baby and toddler on through his awkwardly skinny teenage years and culminating in the most fabulous '80s prom photo EVER -- aren't where I thought they were and I don't want to hunt them up at this hour. Oh well. That will give me something to show you in a future post. :-)


[Note: I may or may not be able to post in the next few days, so if you don't hear from me before Monday it's not because I'm blazy or forgetful or dead (I hope). It's a good thing I'm not obsessive about goals, because my 5/Day plan is already pretty spotty! :-P]


~RCH~

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Wherein I figure out how to embed a YouTube clip (I'm so advanced)

1. That darn baby gave me her cold. *Bachoo!*

2. I can't remember why I didn't write yesterday.... Honestly, I don't really remember yesterday.... All my days run together. :-P

3. Uno is too big for the bicycle she got for Christmas the year before last, which is sad because she only just barely learned to ride without training wheels. It's kind of funny to watch her try -- her knees go nearly up to her ears as she tries to pedal -- but she keeps getting hurt, which is definitely not funny. Poor kid. She needs a new one.

4. I took all the girls to Goodwill this morning, both to look for a larger bike and to get them out of the house (DH worked a night shift and no amount of shushing keeps them quiet enough to let him sleep the day away). Goodwill had no bikes, but we did manage to get a fancy dress for Tres, two pairs of shoes, and a bunch of nice school clothes for the older two (plus a golf visor for Dos, who has always wanted a hat all her life and please, please, Mommy, can it be this one?) for $27.

5. A week from today will be the girls' first full day of school (they get out early on Tuesday, the first day). This is my favorite back-to-school commercial:



So much glitter! And on that note, goodnight. :-)


~RCH~

Monday, August 08, 2011

Eeeeeew.

1. Dos has a loose tooth -- several, actually, but one that's pretty serious about coming out, I guess. She keeps wiggling it at me and threatening to pull it out right in front of me and just now she and Uno came tromping in with a piece of string and asked me to tie it around the tooth so that Uno could yank it out with added force. I kicked them out of the room.

2. I am so creeped out, I can't even tell you. DISGUSTING. Teeth are DISGUSTING. Especially bloody, recently disembodied teeth. ::Shudder::

3. My children know about my aversion (hence all the teasing and taunting). When Uno lost her first tooth, she laughed and said, "Wouldn't it be hilarious if you had to be a tooth fairy?" I screwed up my face in disgust. "Noooooo!" I said. "I could never have that job! Gross!"

4. *** Breaking news! *** The tooth is out. Dos reports that she pulled it the old fashioned way, not with string. Is that any consolation? Nope, still creepy.

5. Voila!
Dos's newly holey mouth


~RCH~

Sunday, August 07, 2011

I'm 36 now!

1. Today is my birthday. I told the girls I wanted a clean house and happy children; I'm not sure they believed me.

2. Poor Cuatro is sick. Nothing more nefarious than a summer cold, but the poor thing has a terribly gloopy nose that she won't let me suction or wipe and she can't breathe and eat at the same time. :-(

3. Uno suggested we all have a spa day before school begins next week. I tried to tell her we are not "spa people" (or at least I'm not). Tres tried to convince me of the benefits of a good spa treatment, too ("I saw it on Phineas & Ferm! They made a spa for Candace and she put vegetables on she's eyes to feel better!") but I will hold my ground. I'm sure it would be lovely to be pampered, but I'd feel so ... I don't know, like a poser. I'm just not fancy.

4. DH had to work today so we began my birthday celebration last night with a trip to O'Charley's (with kids) and then to see The Smurf's. Tomorrow we will have the ILs over for ice cream and cake.

5. Today, and for the next few weeks, I am the same age as my awesome sister. I loved growing up so close with her (in all senses of the word close). I'm grateful to be close with all my brothers and sisters, actually (though sadly no longer in the geographical sense). My family is the coolest. :-)

[Secret 6: I was going to post a full 10 tonight since I missed writing anything yesterday, but Cuatro is in my lap crying and squirming and being overall very pitiful, so I won't. Poor little Smooch.]


~RCH~

Friday, August 05, 2011

Completely Random Friday Five

1. Tres keeps asking me, "Mommy, where did you ever find that cute little Daddy?" She doesn't ask DH the same thing in reverse. Maybe she doesn't think I'm such a good catch? I do tend to think I got the better end of the deal.

2. I really like Phineas and Ferb. Also the Backyardigans and (*gasp!*) Yo Gabba Gabba (I thought I'd hate that one when it first came on). Probably in each case it's the music that first drew me in. Oooh, and also the new Electric Company. I think we have the tv on too much around here.

3. I don't understand boutiquey kids' pants with the huge, ruffly bells on the bottoms. They're usually in some crazy mismatched print, too. UGLY. And strangely expensive (I've never seen a pair at Walmart!). Do you know the kind I mean? I thought about linking to an example, but that seemed mean to whatever anonymous child model I might find so I abandoned my Google image search.

4. I wish I could draw / paint. I can make cartoony little pictures of people facing forward, but I have no actual talent for art.

5. In honor of Shark Week and the Girl to Whom I Need to Write Back (and who does know how to draw quite well, among a million other things she does well) -- the rest of you, please forgive the inside reference -- der hammerhead fallt auf dem water. :-D

Random enough for you?


~RCH~

Thursday, August 04, 2011

Thursday's Five

1. DH took the older girls fishing this evening, so it's just me and Cuatro at home for a few hours. Ahhh, quiet! How I've missed you!

2. We had a crazy morning that began with Uno dropping a large plastic cup of fruit punch which then bounced off the table and splattered everywhere. Stainy, sticky red drops rained down from the kitchen windows, her chair, the table, pooled all over the floor.... "On the bright side," Uno said, "none of it landed on my scrambled eggs! My breakfast is saved!" Yeah. Lucky. Grrrr.

A couple hours later, we had some poop adventures with Cuatro -- maybe 20% my fault for not putting her diaper on very straight, but 80% her fault for being SO FREAKING WIGGLY that it would be impossible for anyone to put it on correctly. *Sigh!* I spent a good deal of time scrubbing her down, putting her in the bath, cleaning stains out of the carpet, disinfecting the changing table and a handful of toys, and making a collection of poop laundry (she got it on Dos's clothes as well as her own).

The day improved from there, though. I guess it would have to, lol.

3. In related news, my sister helped me pinpoint the way in which Cuatro resembles DH! Everybody says that she's an exact copy of me, not a trace of DH in her. But she is a perpetual motion machine, just like her father. She's always trying to escape her bouncy seat or changing table or my embrace; when she sits, she bounces (high! She could go to the baby Olympics with that bounce!). She moves, moves, moves. DH isn't fidgety, but he's always got to be doing something, some project or bit of work. I told him the conclusion we'd come to, and I think he wasn't sure if I meant it as a compliment or a criticism. In Cuatro's case, it's adorable -- sooooo much energy in a teensy-tinsy little body! And in DH's case, I think it's admirable; he's such a hard worker, and it's all to benefit our family. So for both of my perpetual motion machines, it's a compliment. :-)

4. I want to take the girls school shopping this weekend, but I'm afraid that Uno and Dos will have growth spurts immediately after I've spent all the bucks on fall clothes. (They've done it before, the meanies!) If I wait for the growth spurts, though, I'll miss some really good sales. I suppose I could just buy stuff that's too big.... Hmmmm.

5. We have no private preschools in this town -- no cozy home places, no church-affiliated preschools, nothing. The town of 2k people we came from had at least three, and this town of 10k has nothing but the underfunded public pre-K (you have to be extra needy or developmentally delayed to get in because they don't have enough teachers for everybody's kids) and daycares. I don't want to put Tres in daycare and pretend it's preschool, so she and I are going to embark on a learning adventure together. Eeeek! At this point I don't think I'm going to go all out with a particular curriculum, but there are a few workbooks I'm eyeing to help her learn all the basics (letters, numbers, shapes, etc). We'll probably set aside a couple hours twice or three times a week and call it school. Anyone who's done this kind of thing before should feel free to leave me some advice in the comments! ;-)

And that's my five for today.


~RCH~

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

I can do five things

My title may be misleading; I can actually do more than five things. But in considering how much I want to blog (fairly often) and how often I actually do (hardly ever anymore) due to various circumstances (FOUR children, ack!) (which is only a medium size family where I come from, but it's lots to me!) I've decided that I will give up (for now) trying to write long, detailed, eloquent posts about my deep inner feelings. Instead, I will try to post about five things each day through the month of August.

I already missed the first two days, oops. This project, like most I lay my hands on, will have to make do with imperfection.

So! We begin:


1. My sister, BIL and their adorable family spent the last week with us (or from Tuesday evening until Sunday morning, anyway). I miss them already! I did as soon as they drove away, in fact. I mostly know they won't, because other options make much more sense, but I secretly wish they would move into the house directly across the street for me, or the one ~three houses up the block (both of which are for sale and very attractively priced) when BIL is done with pharmacy school.

:: Let us pause for a moment of wistful dreaming ::

Or does anybody else I love want to move into my neighborhood? It's beautiful here, I promise.

2. Uno and Dos have discovered the game of Slug Bug. The only problem? They can't seem to tell the difference between a VW Bug and a PT Cruiser. I think it's hilarious; the two types of cars look nothing alike to me. But maybe their problem is hereditary, and my fault: I'm convinced I have a mild form of face blindness. Maybe my children have car blindness...? LOL.

3. I bought a MomAgenda last year to organize my crazy life. It worked very nicely until Cuatro came, and then (predictably) everything fell apart, organization-wise. I was happy just to make it through the day; never mind penciling in appointments and activities several days or weeks in advance! But now that school is about to start again and my life will return to some semblance of routine and order, I want to try again. Only I don't want to buy somebody else's planner. I'm currently teaching myself Adobe's InDesign program by trying to make my own August to August planner, with spaces for mine and each child's appointments, plus DH's work schedule. I'm a little confused about the data merge (I don't want to have to enter a year's worth of dates manually, UGH) but if I have some quiet time tonight (without children interrupting me every few minutes) I'm sure I'll figure it out.

4. The girls were adorable in their play, A Kidsummer Night's Dream. They were in the chorus line of fairies -- nobody 4th grade or younger was eligible for a bigger part -- but I swear they stole the show. ;-) Here are some pics:

Uno and Dos

Dos (center)

Uno (did I ever mention she got glasses?)

Panoramic shot of the stage


5. Randomly glancing my hand across my bookshelf a few days ago, I found an old book I haven't looked at in years: A Coney Island of the Mind by Lawrence Ferlinghetti. Ahhh, the memories it brought back! Ferlinghetti and Ginsberg and Frank O'Hara, favorite poets of my youth -- they all make me smile. What I'd give to have been a black turtleneck or a pair of cigarette pants ca. 1961, LOL. I'd have been at all the cool poetry readings.

For your reading pleasure, here's one among many of his fabulous pieces:

I Am Waiting

I am waiting for my case to come up
and I am waiting
for a rebirth of wonder
and I am waiting for someone
to really discover America
and wail
and I am waiting
for the discovery
of a new symbolic western frontier

and I am waiting
for the American Eagle
to really spread its wings
and straighten up and fly right
and I am waiting
for the Age of Anxiety
to drop dead
and I am waiting
for the war to be fought
which will make the world safe
for anarchy
and I am waiting
for the final withering away
of all governments
and I am perpetually awaiting
a rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the Second Coming
and I am waiting
for a religious revival
to sweep thru the state of Arizona
and I am waiting
for the Grapes of Wrath to be stored
and I am waiting
for them to prove
that God is really American
and I am waiting
to see God on television
piped onto church altars
if only they can find
the right channel
to tune in on
and I am waiting
for the Last Supper to be served again
with a strange new appetizer
and I am perpetually awaiting
a rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for my number to be called
and I am waiting
for the Salvation Army to take over
and I am waiting
for the meek to be blessed
and inherit the earth
without taxes
and I am waiting
for forests and animals
to reclaim the earth as theirs
and I am waiting
for a way to be devised
to destroy all nationalisms
without killing anybody
and I am waiting
for linnets and planets to fall like rain
and I am waiting for lovers and weepers
to lie down together again
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the Great Divide to be crossed
and I am anxiously waiting
for the secret of eternal life to be discovered
by an obscure general practitioner
and I am waiting
for the storms of life
to be over
and I am waiting
to set sail for happiness
and I am waiting
for a reconstructed Mayflower
to reach America
with its picture story and tv rights
sold in advance to the natives
and I am waiting
for the lost music to sound again
in the Lost Continent
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the day
that maketh all things clear
and I am awaiting retribution
for what America did
to Tom Sawyer
and I am waiting
for Alice in Wonderland
to retransmit to me
her total dream of innocence
and I am waiting
for Childe Roland to come
to the final darkest tower
and I am waiting
for Aphrodite
to grow live arms
at a final disarmament conference
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting
to get some intimations
of immortality
by recollecting my early childhood
and I am waiting
for the green mornings to come again
youth’s dumb green fields come back again
and I am waiting
for some strains of unpremeditated art
to shake my typewriter
and I am waiting to write
the great indelible poem
and I am waiting
for the last long careless rapture
and I am perpetually waiting
for the fleeing lovers on the Grecian Urn
to catch each other up at last
and embrace
and I am awaiting
perpetually and forever
a renaissance of wonder

"I Am Waiting" from A Coney Island of the Mind. Copyright © 1958 by Lawrence Ferlinghetti.


~RCH~

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

The way things worked out

I need to stop wishing for things; they never turn out the way I expect. Remember when I wanted a brief, preemptive respite from the craziness of life with a newborn? My wish came true! I rested up while qualified nurses took over the bulk of the baby care because Cuatro was stuck in the NICU for four days struggling to regulate her blood sugar. Nice. And remember a few days ago, when I felt so stressed out? I just wanted it all to go away! Well, it did -- all but one stressor, which grew and grew and gobbled up the rest.

*SIGH.*

Let's begin our story a little earlier:

We have had crazy weather in the past week or so. [Note: I began writing this blog post the day after Easter. I am a slow writer. Forgive me.] Last Tuesday, a storm knocked a large tree limb onto the roof of our front porch; the thump of it cracked the support column at the top and bottom:

tree limb on porch roof
April 19, 2011 at 11:30pm (about two hours after the limb fell), just before DH and his uncle dragged it off the porch roof.

tree limb on ground the next morning
The limb on the ground the next morning. It came from that tree on the left, so you can see how the wind must have torqued it.

cracked column
The cracked column (it's cracked at the top, too, but I couldn't get a decent shot of that). It doesn't look like much, but it's enough to destabilize the column so we're going to have it removed, repaired, and put back. $$$! Thank goodness for insurance.

We had a close call around the side of the house (with a tree that we meant to have removed last summer, but never got around to it). A few inches to the East and this thing would have come crashing through the beautiful dining room windows instead of landing softly on the bushes.

close call!
Eeek!

DH heard the tree hit the house, but I didn't; I was already in the basement with the girls and our flashlights. (I always miss the dramatic stuff. In 2003, DH stood in the parking lot of our Kansas City apartment watching the F4 tornado approach until debris started to hit; I had been clutching my baby in the basement hallway well before the funnel crested over the hill, so I didn't see it.) Uno and Dos, who'd had to be roused from sleep to head down to our safe place, were very nervous about the storm -- and about being in a basement notorious for its jumping spiders (though, to be honest, the threat of jumping spiders may have been exaggerated to keep them out of my one good place to hide presents). Tres, on the other hand, had the situation under control:

"Listen guys," my 3yo said to her 6- and 8yo sisters, gesturing firmly with both hands. "This is not the time to panic! We're going to be okay. NOBODY PANIC!"

And she was right. Mostly. Except that we did see a spider (regular, not jumping, but BIG). DH had joined us by then, though, so he stomped it to death and we all survived to tell the tale.

We went without power for a full day, which made me realize how unprepared we are for any real kind of disaster. But then life got back to normal ... for a day. Are we keeping track?

Tuesday: Violent (though non-tornadic, sis!) thunder & wind storm
Wednesday: Calm and dry, but no power until late in the evening
Thursday: Beautiful!
Friday: More thunderstorms roll in
Saturday: Crazy-heavy, pouring-down rain all day long; beginning to feel the pressure of my responsibilities; blog an overwhelmed blog post

So when we last left off, I had a lot on my mind -- hosting a holiday dinner at my house; keeping the children safe (from each other mostly) while DH worked until 8pm; writing a 10- to 15-minute talk about Christ's Atonement (you know, a nice light subject!); figuring out how to be musical.... Oh, and one more! Keeping the basement from flooding!

Our 108yo house has what is called a "wet basement." That just sounds like a bad idea, frankly, but it's not a finished (or even finishable) space meant for living in, so I guess it's okay. Apparently the builders anticipated that water would seep up from the ground into the foundation occasionally, so they sloped the floor ever-so slightly -- not enough that you'd notice, but enough to direct the stream toward a concrete trench called a French drain that then empties through a pipe out of the house toward the street.

Normally it works just fine. When it rains enough that the groundwater rises up through the foundation, a small but continuous trickle of water will run through the well-worn trench and out. But we don't usually get this much rain; our town's average precipitation during the wettest month of the year is 4.98 inches. During the week of April 19th through the 26th -- from the Tuesday of that wind storm to the Tuesday just after Easter -- we had 12.5 inches of rain, and most of that came over the weekend.

It rained all day Saturday -- sometimes a misty drizzle, sometimes fat, fast raindrops. I went downstairs every couple of hours to check the basement, and every time I did I'd find the trench overflowing and the water creeping up toward the cardboard boxes and Christmas decorations we have stored there. I'd turn on the WetVac again, quickly fill it with 16 gallons of rain water, empty that into three 5-gallon buckets (eh, who cares about that last gallon!), haul a bucket on each arm up the stairs of the old coal chute (more spidery, but shorter than the stairs to the back door on the main level), dump the buckets in the back yard where it slopes toward the street, come back for the third bucket, haul it to the yard, dump it, then come back to fill the WetVac -- rinse and repeat -- until I had caught up with the water and it was back to a small stream in the trench again.

Was that a run-on sentence? Because that's what my life began to feel like Saturday night: DH came home shortly after I put the kids to bed; we did the basement routine together, then I sat down to brainstorm for the Easter talk I would give in church the next day. I figured I had about an hour or so before the water in the basement reached critical levels -- enough time to gather sources or figure out a rough outline of what I wanted to say, then back to the grindstone, then back to writing. But DH went down earlier and found that the water had already risen dangerously high. We slurped and dumped, slurped and dumped until it looked like we were ahead of things, then resolved to check back in 30 minutes rather than an hour. 30 minutes later, though, the situation looked even more bleak.

I thought we'd be up very late: 2 or 3am, maybe, and then the rain would let up and we'd catch up with all the water. Or, I thought, maybe we can take it in shifts: I'll stay up half the night while DH sleeps, then I can sleep (or write my talk) while he works to keep the basement dry(ish) until morning. Except that we never caught up; the rain never stopped; it never even slowed down enough to become a one-person job.

The two of us worked literally all night, hard physical labor. Not all night in the sense of, "wow, that felt like a long time and kept us up late!" There was not a moment when we were not awake, vacuuming up water with the WetVac, filling buckets, dumping buckets, water lapping our ankles at every step. I did take a short break some time during the night to pop 4 Advils with a Dr. Pepper chaser. DH left me to fend for myself briefly while he tried to hunt down a plumber's snake (not an easy item to come by at 2am on Easter Sunday, for some reason, though he finally rustled one up from his parents' house). He snaked the drain to no avail: the rain kept coming; the water kept backing up; we had to keep working.

Trivia item of the day: Five gallons of water weighs (depending on the weight of the bucket) between 45-50 lbs. For hours, I carried one five-gallon bucket of water on each arm, then dumped them and returned for another five gallons. Over and over and over. I felt sore for days afterward.

It seems insane now, looking back, that we kept at it for so long. We did have several conversations throughout the night about how much it might cost to call a professional out to the house in the middle of the night. On a weekend. Over a holiday. If the problem had escalated earlier, we might have called someone -- but it had been manageable (annoying, but manageable) all during daylight; I'd only had to do the Slurp & Dump every couple of hours. The flooding only became critical around 10:30 or 11pm, and at that point we didn't know that it would stay that bad until morning. We thought it would stop raining. We didn't know what we'd gotten ourselves into until it was much too late.

Eventually, the rain did stop. By 7am, blue skies began to peek through the clouds. I kept at it (feeling like a zombie by then, tired beyond any sensation or ability to think) while DH went to get help from our across-the-street neighbor. When they and FIL came back over, I quit and let the men folk (or rather, the more well rested folk) take over.

Back to my list of stresses: The talk. Teaching music to the kids. Hosting a holiday dinner.... The stress of a flooded basement eclipsed everything else; I knew I couldn't possibly speak in church -- I had nothing prepared, no brain left to throw something together, and I'm not the sort who can speak off the cuff. DH, on the other hand, can and he (who is also more accustomed, thanks to his job, to staying up all night) graciously volunteered to speak in my place. I passed the music duties on to one of my counselors (though I found out later that she didn't get my message before church, so I probably stressed her out plenty -- oops!). I dramatically lowered my expectations of elegance for the Easter dinner.

I didn't even make it to church, which made me sad. But although DH, FIL and the neighbor had by that time jerry-rigged a sump pump to sit in the French drain, its float sat too high to trigger the pumping mechanism without a lot of water (and a lot of water is what we'd been trying to avoid all night!) so I stayed home to (a) babysit the pump -- forcing the float up as necessary -- and (b) try to figure out if I could get it to trigger earlier (never did figure that out). Besides, I thought it would be weird to show up to church, with my name on the program as a speaker, and then not speak. And if I sat down for any length of time (in the car or in a pew) I wasn't sure if I'd wake up for days. So I stayed home with the baby and puttered around.

Our adventure ended happily: The neighbor who helped rig up the sump pump came back in the afternoon, after his family's Easter festivities, with an industrial-sized snake. That didn't work, so he (who is not a plumber -- I have no idea where he got all this stuff) came back a little while later with a huge roto-rooter. He, FIL, DH, and DH's cousin (who had come for Easter dinner and gotten more than he bargained for, oops) worked at that for an hour or so at the street end of the drain until they pulled out a massive tangle of tree roots and debris that had kept the pipe clogged. Finally, the water stopped backing up in our basement and flowed freely again. We have had plenty of rain since then (PLENTY!) but no more problems with the French drain.

*PHEW.*

Though I still think we need to have a professional drill a hole in our basement floor to install the sump pump correctly. Just in case there's a next time.

Which there had better not be.

Anyway, yeah: That's what I get for wishing that all my problems could go away. Most of them did, just not in the way I expected. :-P

Fun fact: According to Weather.com, our town averages 4.64" of precipitation in the month of April. According to the local TV weather man (whom I emailed for the purposes of this blog), our town received 17.16" during April 2011.

Crazy.


~RCH~

Saturday, April 23, 2011

STRESSY! Stressy Stress Stress.

Tomorrow is Easter. Yay! We have the family coming over: DH's parents; his sister, her son and fiancé (and maybe his two kids?); and DH's great aunt and cousin. Plus our six, of course. MIL is bringing the bulk of the meal, and SIL and I will round it out with some sides, so I don't have to worry about a lot of cooking.

I do have to worry about making the place presentable, though. My kids have been out of school since mid morning on Thursday. They've gotten into EVERYTHING.

And it's raining. Not the Dancing Around Lampposts kind of rain, but the Holy Crap Where's the Ark! variety. The kind that makes the basement flood. DH's very kind uncle just came over and helped me slurp up and dump ~192 gallons of water (about 12 fill-ups of our 16-gallon WetVac). The rain has slowed for now to a steady mist, but when it starts pouring again -- which it is forecast to do many, many times between now and next Wednesday -- I'll have to keep up on it.

DH is at work; did I mention that? Luckily he does have tomorrow off, but for now it's just me and the kids.

Speaking of the kids, Cuatro has a cold. All the lovely phlegm that isn't in her nose gets stuck in her throat, so she coughs it up -- along with heaping helpings of spit up (which she's good at doing anyway, but she's in overdrive now!). Tres slammed her hand with the lid of a trunk we keep Little People toys in (I'm surprised it's not broken, but she can wiggle everything so she did not get a trip to see Daddy in the ER). Dos just now screamed from the other room, "Thanks a lot, Uno! Now I'm bleeding!" I wonder what that's about.

I have been asked to speak in church tomorrow about the Atonement. I have no idea what I'll say. I am incapable of speaking off the cuff, so I will have to find some quiet time before 10am tomorrow to sit and reflect and write out something profound. Because I have just oodles of quiet time, you know.

Also, Primary: My counselors in the Presidency and I rotate through several duties each month; April is not my month to be in charge of the singing practice, but the person whose turn it is will be out of town so I will fill in. This month she chose to teach the children a fancy song! Beautiful Savior, divided into parts. It will be gorgeous if we can do it, but it's not easy teaching harmonies to the 11-and-under set who have little to no musical background. And what kind of song leader can I be, when I seem to be physically unable to hear or process anything but the melody? Even when you play nothing but the alto line, I don't get it; my brain doesn't understand it somehow. If it's not melodic, it doesn't stick. I suspect some of the boys, who will be singing that part, have the same problem.

So.... Yeah. I think that's all. That isn't much, is it? 15 people coming over; house to clean; manage flooding basement; keep children from killing themselves or each other; write a decent talk; figure out how to teach music I, myself, don't understand.

Oh, and I have to drag all four kids with me to Walmart in a bit. And I need to finish up a graphic design project a friend of mine has commissioned for her preschool (she'll pay me and everything, so I can't let her down). And Uno needs me to type something up for a school project of hers.

Plus I need to feed us every now and then. I want to get fast food or take-out, just to simplify things, but I reviewed our recent expenditures this morning and am appalled at how much we spend on Meals Not At Home. My waistline is also appalled. I weighed myself yesterday: I am ~50 lbs heavier than I was in high school. Ugh. Granted, I was underweight in high school, but seriously -- fifty pounds?? Sometimes I wish I had the self control for an eating disorder (anorexics are crazy strong-willed!). That's not nice to joke about, I know, but I'm only about 20% joking.

Sigh. Anyway. I guess I better get down to business. Lots to do.


~RCH~

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